You're Beautiful

Find comfort in knowing that I see you for who you are

The not so obvious beauty

The raw you

Under the:

façade

Mask

And tears

I see your core

Through all the

Fire and storms

And man you are beautiful

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Thoughts

Tell me about the thoughts
that keep you up late at night

Let me be those thoughts that linger in your mind
like the scent of bitter wine

Let me be that last taste on your lips
That you slowly lick
When you can't get enough of it

I want to be that tattoo you get
Impulsively
But please don't regret ever wanting me

I want to be the sun that radiate warmth to your face
The sweet love and tenderness in every embrace

I want to be the words that role off your tongue
The careful whispers
The songs that are sung

I need to be the last thoughts you have before you sleep
I need you to know You are those thoughts for me

I want to be the reason that you wake up for the next day
I want you to love me in every possible way

Tell me
the thoughts that keep you up late at night
and let me be those thoughts

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Worthlessness

Worthlessness

Is what you made me feel
I loved you
And even though you did what you did
 I still love you

I want to hate you
I want to pretend that you don't exist
But my heart has no prejudice
All it can feel is love

I couldn't find the words to say when I discovered your betrayal

I wanted to say
Fuck you!
I wanted to walk away from you
In a last attempt to make you see
That you'd regret loosing me

I wanted to hate you so much
That thought of you would make me sick
That the mention of your name would make the inside of stomach churn
so that every butterfly you ever made me feel would die

But all I could feel
is sadness
Because I love you

I wanted you to feel pain
the same pain you made my heart feel
 when I discovered your infidelity

But all I could do is feel worthlessness

So I wrote it all down
So that you can see
All the pain that you have caused me

I loved you
I still love you

But you made me feel worthless
But I discovered through this pain
The worthless one here
Is you

And I don't wish karma upon your door
But I know that you will never meet a woman that will love you
That will sacrifice her life for you
The way I have
and that
is a promise

Because I love you more than any words could express
More than any other human could express to another soul mate
I love you unconditionally
Yes it is possible because even now
Through it all
I continue to feel nothing but love for you

And what hurts the most is
Your insensitivity
As if an apology is suppose erase
all that you did to me
the words that you said to her
The very same words that made butterflies in my stomach fly around
The words that made me feel alive
Loved
Cared for
Important
The same words you said to me
That made me love you

So I apologize
not to you
But to myself for
Ignoring all the signs in front of me
For looking past the first time you broke my heart.
And most importantly for putting you above myself

I want to forgive you
So that my heart can feel peace
But all I can feel at this point
Is Worthlessness

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